What I want...

Sigh... I really don't wanna sound so sad and emo, but, I just got that feeling... And I wanna express it right now before I soak myself with tears...

Alright. Talk about want, seriously, I want a lot of things in my life. Not just about things, it is something that I wanna do.

For example:

I really wanna go for clubbing. I mean, c'mon, I'm 19 already! A simple night out, I just couldn't get out of the house and go to the club. Okay, think it another way. It's for my own good since night out wasn't safe for girls where M'sia wasn't safe anymore... Sigh...

Secondly, I really want to go outside by myself, and I refer to DRIVING. I got my driving license on April, and practised TWICE on the road only.. So pathetic...

Thirdly, I was so emo, coz I felt a bit lonely... I want somebody to talk to, or someone accompany me chat on the phone (which long time I never done with Hubby).
See, I always envy Hubby that he could hang out with his friends NO MATTER what time it is. Is it because he got car?? OR he got lots of friends?? Okay, so, where are my friends? When there is a night time movie to watch, I'm always left behind coz I JUST CAN'T go out at night.. Right. What am I blaming here anyway.. I just felt that I WAS SO DESPERATE, just wanna hang out with my friends, like belong with them.

Sometimes I keep telling Hubby that I miss him through msn or sms. But, I don't know why I miss him for... He told me that, don't stick with him too much coz it's annoying and he doesn't like it. Sigh... Then, sometimes I did my own thing, and he was mad at me why I wasn't sms him the whole day. (Thought you asked me NOT TOO STICKY with you???) Weird...

Perhaps I think too much... I don't know.. Coz, it's frustrated anyway... the movie, "Saw1-5", the motto of it is Cherish your life. I know I shouldn't blame here, and cherish everything what I have now. But, I want what I want.
I wish that I wanna dance again. Join hip hop class... Coz when you are doing something that you like or love, you would forget your stress. I believe it so. I just don't wanna think about loneliness again... And envy my Hubby...

Sigh... I just wanna... Blame a bit, and express a lot...

At this time, what are you doing...

My hubby is clubbing at Malacca now... =.=

I miss him though...