Acceptance...

Tell me guys, honestly, am I so hard to be accepted...?

After those incidents happened at the past, I have changed... or should I say, improved... slightly improvement...

But why everyone seems like, hate me, reject me, gossip about me, backstab me...

I told myself, not to border... just not to border for 1 sec... 1 min... 1 hour...

"FAKE"... just totally out of control...

I thought I am being myself, as myself, but with another me...

Was it so hard to see? to perceive? to observe?

Those who have known me... They backstabbed me... What should I react?

Close friends in college, gossipped about me... What should I react?

Almost everyone in class hate me right now... What did I do wrong?

I was lost...

Can someone help me?

I'm... losing myself...

Some told me, we have to be honest in ourselves, be truly of ourselves...

Some told me, we should be awared of anything which around us... no matter what...

Some told me, behave ourselves... no matter what...

I almost have done all my best... There are still think I'm worse...

I don't know who I am anymore...

The one who was 38, the one who love to laugh,

I think she's fading away...

Soon